Saturday, May 14, 2022

absolut vodka

You wish you knew me earlier. You told me you felt safe with me. My arm supported your back as your head rested right above my heart. I felt my pulse grow steadier as I listened to your heart beat and you listened to mine. (In Hindi we call it dhak dhak and that is what I felt when I held you.) 

You said we should ignore each other next month but live in this moment fully now. I did. I remember how happy it made me feel. 


I don’t want materialistic love, I just want your company. I too felt safe with you, right there in that moment, I wish I could live in it forever. I felt greater than infinite yet less than nothing. 


I felt fluid and I 

felt happy. 


Thank you for that. 

 

Thursday, May 5, 2022

i am tired

Please don’t call me / I am tired / the birds are chirping outside / they’re awake but I have not slept yet / I am tired / please go ahead and blow your smoke all over my face / maybe this second hand vapor will kill me / I hope it will / I am tired / pour me shot over shot / it is in inebriation that I feel like I can breathe / an excuse to be myself / I am not drunk / I am tired / I am tired / please don’t call me / I am okay / I am just tired