happy new year ;)

hello everyone, or to the few who come here sometimes, 

happy new year :) sorry for being a bit late. i have been enjoying life. 

by no means does this mean that there haven't been hardships. oh no no no. there have been many. but resilience is a nice skill to hone. 

besides, there are some people i quite love. and i might not talk to them everyday, but hey. i still love them. as of late: family, a, m, a, s, z, n, p... 

tiny little shoutout, i guess. 

there are still parts of me that pause in doubt before admitting that i actually do like someone and care about them. i suppose it is because i am scared they don't feel the same way. and i'm not saying that is isn't entirely plausible for them to not feel the same, but i guess i'm just scared of admitting that and then being openly hurt later. like with L. that was an L for me, lol, but still. i suppose it shapes you. 

i'm just grateful for life, and i am proud of myself. i really need to take a moment to realize that life has not been easy for me. just because i haven't told anyone about the great grievances of my life, doesn't mean i can't take a moment for myself to be proud of what i have been through and how i persevered. 

besides, i think, you - whoever you are - must know me well enough to be here. hey, if we haven't talked, and we are friends, just come and say "hi nalini". you never know what might happen.

dhamaka

alright, that is all. 

mini announcement: my second book will be published soon. well not soon, but yes. and i hope you like it. it's for you anyways. not for the world but for you. isn't that crazy? writing to reveal your deep, innermost fantasies, dreams, and thoughts to your friends? maybe you won't know what i mean, or maybe you will. i hope you do. 

have a great year!

love,
nalini aka
soberly drunk poetry