Thursday, May 30, 2019

NOW

I want to know why you have turned into this person,
a person you weren't when, at least, I was there in the depths of your heart.
Why is there an unfriendly smile for me without reason,
when I was the one who made fired up your emotions and made them start.
But then again, does it matter?
Not really..
But I did occupy space with you and I did share mass,
I did sit on the same bench, the same swing set,
I did hold your shoulder when you would cry,
And I did soothe your nose when it was swollen and wet,
I did write a thousand words for you,
And I did call you over.
I did console you with a caressing voice,
And I did wish the best for you,
Until and also after it was over.
But surely, I did matter then and I don't matter now.
Is 'now' now? Or the second that went by,
or 2 seconds before that,
or 3 or 4....
But this 'now' is desperately long.
I have not been replaced in namely position yet,
but in the emotional position I held.
I know it's complicated but now there is somebody else who holds your hand,
And hugs you back,
And makes you laugh.
But I don't think there is someone who can write a thousand words for you,
All true
And full of meaning.
But then again, our now stretches forever into the hours and days and months next.