The music hurts my ears, but the silence does more.
The chaos just eats away at my peace.
If my shut my eyes, I think the sky outside is red,
but when I open them, I still don't have any sight.
Waking up feels like a chore, so does falling asleep;
I exhale a tear but I wish it was a snore.
The wind scars my skin, but their words do more.
I'm not one to commit, because I am the sin.
Because a person is the sum of what they do,
and I have just transgressed.
The worst of me said may be true, but so is the good.
I know not when I will find the warmth I so desire.
I know not when I will find a version of myself
I am happy to be.
So I wish I could.
Till then, I am the stone while I am the bird,
I am sensible yet I am the absurd.