Tuesday, August 21, 2018

i hate her

I am broken.
She walked out on me?
Again.
I should have been more prudent.
Why did I have to trust her crushed smile?
Why did I have to fall for her?
I couldn't bear her being with someone else,
because I thought I loved her more than anyone else.
Did I love her?
I loved her good parts...
I loved her senseless jokes,
and her smokeless farts.
But I hated her occasional negativity.
And I hated her realness.

I hated her flaws,
there were too many of them.
Anyways, she left me now.
And according to the "love laws".
I won't give a f*ck about her!

-Nalini

To be or not to be?

"She's always happy",
they chant.
Can't see through the mask,
she feels crappy.
She laughs with you from morning to night,
making you unaware of her plight.
She can't feel the happiness she shows,
she can't change dramatically, she knows.
She needs  to be there for her sad friend.
She needs to be there for her crying sister.
She needs to be able to send
something more than just a whisper.
She needs to be that pillar of strength,
her voice needs to be louder,
she has to increase the wavelength.

She has to be who she is expected to be,
she has to be who everyone wants to see.

-Nalini