I love you so much papa

Today I lost a piece of my soul, 
And it is irreparable. 
Bereft of your pain, I am happy for you
But now I don't have my best friend anymore. 
You were the one who not only leaded me, 
but also held my hand and walked beside me. 
You were a person who's love was like a giant tree, 
in the midst of a dreary, damp forest; 
A little love blowed to thee 
could fire up your metabolism and then, 
You spread love and laughter as proliferating as a tornado. 
You are my best friend, 
and I know I was yours,
we shared a connection that was beautiful and lovely and wonderful and, real. 
I talk to you from my heart and, 
they are anything but missed calls. 
You never missed a message from me, 
And I hope you always call me. 
That evening you told me it was okay to cry, 
But important to be the strong pillar
of a naive mother. 
I miss you already because you were the one who could tap the inner me, 
and instil that drive, that motivation
And I feel alone because I have lose my best friend.

Coffee & you; bitter

When I am drinking coffee,

The image of your face comes flitting into my mind,

And strains of belongingness on your face,

And I wonder where the belongingness  comes from,

As you are not mine and I am not yours.

And then I realise what the belongingness denotes,

It is merely an indication of how much more happier you are now,

Now that you left the home I made for you.

And then when you think that my mind has wandered off somewhere,

Your eyes fill up with water but I know it is mostly pain,

And you think that I cannot see it, that I am busy,

But my heart has a soft spot for you yet,

Even though the intense love has faded away leaving only immense care,

But anyways, I can see it,

See the pain, see how you don't belong with the one you are now,

And it is okay,

I will come again, love,

I'll come and save you again.