spinning too close then spinning away

Right now, this moment that we are enjoying,
a moment with happiness beyond measure,
and love beyond infinite;
this moment will just fade into a story
in the back of our minds.
When we were having a conversation that was erudite,
and turned it into a joke with giggles that lingered,
we smiled and smiled and promised each other,
that we would stay together.
But that promise is still in the Recycle Bin.
When we chatted away,
and I promised to be by your side forever,
and believed in it for months and months-
then years after, it's a memory as small as a pin.
When we smiled at each other with tear streaked faces,
and firmly said that this would be the last time we
all get into a fight,
but then we fought again
and again
and again
all through morning and night.
When we were on the swing in my park,
and we looked at each,
I knew I was thinking about
how I would wait forever,
even if you would carry around a lot of clout,
even if you would stop talking to me.
But now I laugh at that thought,
and then cry.
How our beloved memories simply fall,
fall,
fall,
and fall,
through the infinitely cloudy voids
of our minds.

The falling never comes to an end,
it's like a circular remote loop.
The memories fall and fall
and some days, we catch a glimpse of them.
But then again, too quick to get a hold
they vanish again -
to continue their unrestrained discoidal journey.

-Nalini