Jupas Interview

I am really sad for not receiving any before-DSE interviews. My hope was to score an interview on the basis of my profile- merits and self account, not my exam scores. But the interview period has passed and I was not able to feel the excitement other students did when they saw "JUPAS Interview" in the mailbox. 

My absolutely brilliant and smart friend J did not receive any either, and while it is a tad bit consoling, I feel terribly sorry for both of us, because in spite of our SPNs, we were unable to score an interview. It's his birthday tomorrow so I wish that he gets into the uni of his choice.

My last hope is being called for an interview after the release of my DSE scores, but I think it is highly unlikely.

No

I’m not bad and I’m not selfish. We have lost our foundation. I’m just constantly trying to fill that gap in with anything that I can find. I’m trying to fix our cohesion. I’m trying to make us a sound family. I desperately want to know too where my faults lie. Just because I try to impose the rules we had earlier, doesn’t mean I’m a dictator. 

I’m so tired of being misunderstood. I just want to fix everything. I want to make us all each other’s best friends instead of merely material to be ranted to other best friends. 

I don’t know what to do. If I stop I’ll feel guilty for not trying my best. If I don’t then they’re going to ruin me. 

I don’t know what to do. Going through with this is the right thing to do- as a daughter, sister, person. But the selfish choice would be to back off, let the whole family fall apart.

They think I’m selfish. But I make the right choice everyday. 

In this case, the right choice and the selfish choice are mutually exclusive of each other. 

- an excerpt from a fictional story I wrote called No