Wednesday, December 3, 2025

underneath lies a soft exterior, you are still walking in red light

Your presence burns bright in my memories long after we’ve parted ways, 

and in spite of being pierced by your cruel words the same way you would see a sourdough bread be cut open,

my true opinion of you hasn’t changed.

Underneath the harshness lies a soft exterior, 

one that can love and be loved, one that is kind and gentle, 

for your sake (but mostly mine), I choose to remember you that way. 

Call it delusion if it isn’t compassion, even I will never know.

So while you’ve villainized me and CTRL+X’ed everything we’ve ever had together, 

I consciously choose to remember the good days with a smile instead of sorrow.

That being said, the grief you caused me does haunt me at night, 

where in my dreams you take the form of a devil washed in red light.